This morning I woke up really early even though I had gone to bed really late the night before. This worrying about the biopsy is getting the best of all of us and I couldn't stand it any longer. So I decided to call San Francisco around 8am to see if they had received the results. The operator answers and said that they were in! I freaked out... and then asked, "are you sure? last time they said they were in and they were mistaken!" and she reassured me they were in, but that the nurse hadn't called me because she needed to talk to the doctor about them. The operator said she will send a note to the nurse to let her know I called and was asking for a call back today.
When I hung up, I freaked out! Why did she need to talk to the doctor? What was wrong? Is something wrong? What is something is wrong? Oh my gosh, please don't let it be bad, please! <-- Those were the questions that I kept saying out loud by myself. I didn't know how to act. So I decided to pray and pray and then I turned around to look at my night stand and I saw a bracelet that my parents got me the night before that reads:
"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." -Jeremiah 29:11
I have to admit that when I read that bracelet, I remembered that God has plans and to not doubt whatever is to come for God choose this faith for me and my well-being. I can assure you that after I prayed to God once more to give me the strength to indure anything he feels I need to expierence, my phone rang and on the screen flashed UCSF (at 10:34am). I picked up the phone and it was the nurse saying that the results were as expected by the doctor and that we will be going ahead with only precautionary surgery instead of removing the uterus since it was FINE!!! Thank you Jesus! Thank you God and the Virgin Mary for this blessing! That was the first thing I literally yelled when I hung up the phone crying! (even as I type it that feeling that went into my body was unexplainable, like if God himself was sitting next to me while I got the news on the phone. It makes me teary.) I called my husband and he was so excited. He even took the rest of the day off to come spend it with me. Then I called my mom and then texted the entire world and posted it on facebook. I wanted the entire world to know how amazing I was feeling right now, how happy I felt. Even though it was raining, I seriously felt like the sun was shining and the birds were chirping, my outlook on life had changed in a second and now more than ever I was happy to be alive.
It's very hard to explain how I feel right now. The happiness overcame everything and everyone. And I have God and all of you out there that have kept me in your prayers! You don't understand how much all your encouraging words have been. No matter if they were through comments on my blog or facebook, emails, texts, phone calls or in person, all of you guys (my friends) and my family have been of so much support that I am forever grateful and in debt with all of you. Thank you once again.
Even though it's not over yet, and I still have to have my laproscopic surgery and I still have to have Chemo, all of it will be for precautionary purposes (as well as tomorrow's CT Scan). Thank you again so much.
Anyways, back to the crazy weather we have been having... even though I felt like it was the most beautiful day ever, unfortunately many would disagree (hehehe). It was horrible winds (that even warnings were coming on TV) and thunderstorms with heavy heavy rain. And sometime around 5pm a long hail storm hit our town. Here's a picture:
Even though it doesn't look like much, it was a lot (especially for sunny California). But nothing could bring my joy down (especially since I love rainy days :oP).
Thank you again for everything. I'll continue to keep you posted but for now... this was a huge relief!
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